Friday, January 10, 2014

Her (2013 film) - Review/Thoughts

Falling in love is a crazy thing to do. It's like a socially acceptable form of insanity.  -Her (2013 film)

If Spike Jonze wanted me to feel something with this film, Her, I did.

Starring -
 
Joaquin Phoenix as Theodore and
Scarlett Johansson as the voice of Samantha/Her
Amy Adams as Amy  

 
Theatrical release poster
I am not going to go in to complete detail about the film.  I really enjoyed the film.  I thought it was amazing.  But this film is so much more than a man falling in love with his computer.  This is a man who is going through a divorce and falls "in love" with a an OS ( intelligent operating system).  When loading his OS, a computer asks him some questions.  Are you social or anti-social?  Would you like your OS to have a male or female voice?  How would you describe your relationship with your mother?  The computer cuts him off after he tries to answer the question and creates, a OS that is suppose to fit and work with his personality.  But in time the OS is developing feelings and a intelligent, in depth personality.  Eventually Theodore and his OS falls "in love."  The relationship becomes a bit much for them.  And eventually Theodore finds out that Samantha is not only talking to him, but with hundreds to thousands of other people.  Towards the end, the OS's get discontinued, shut down and Theodore has a moment with his friend Amy on the roof of there apartment building.  Just looking out and gazing at the beautiful skyline, together. 

This film made me a bit uneasy, uncomfortable with where technology is heading.  I don't like that
the majority of people are so dependent on technology.  We engage more with our computers and not much with people nowadays, so imagine what could happen in the future.  It's disturbing to me that's it's possible, that one day a computer can have more personality and feelings than people.  It's disturbing that people will create a way to "bring dead people back" by uploading all of there life work on to a software and a recording of there voice and have them talking to you. 
 
But it would be really cool to have a conversation with Albert Einstein, but I would still be a bit disturbed by it, because I know the dude is dead. 
 
I don't think this kind of advance technology is a good idea.  I don't think people will be able to really handle it.  And some people will lose sense of all reality.  Or people falling in love with machines, but I guess what ever makes you happy, right?
 
What Spike Jonze wrote, directed, and produced is genius, I highly recommend you watch it. 
 
I give this film a 4/5.

Wednesday, January 1, 2014

Silence




"Silence is something that comes from your heart, not from outside. Silence doesn't mean not talking and not doing things; it means that you are not disturbed inside. If you’re truly silent, then no matter what situation you find yourself in you can enjoy the silence."  -Thich Nhat Hanh

Thich Nhat Hanh (born October 11, 1926) is a Vietnamese Zen Buddhist monk, teacher, author, poet and peace activist.

What I believe his words to mean...

Being Silent doesn't mean ignoring people and not communicating with someone.  If you do that, it comes off as you believing that you don't have to speak because you know you are wrong and don't know how to speak honestly with someone.  Or you think you did nothing wrong, and just don't want to respond because you are being self- righteous.  All in all, you are giving someone the silent treatment.  And there is a difference between being silent and givng someone the silent treatment.

But how can someone that gives you the silent treatment, truly sit in silence with themselves?  In that moment of someone's life, it's not possible.  Yes, you can sit and think about your life in silence.  But to really acknowledge it, accept it, and appreciate it -- to get angry with yourself, to cry with yourself, to respect yourself, to love yourself, to really feel.  That's when you will be able to respond with yourself and with others.  That's when you can really enjoy your silence and know the difference between giving someone the silent treatment and being silent.

When you sit in silence and enjoy it, it's because you achieve an enlightened state of being after a long struggle and understanding of yourself.  And the realization about human life which you shared with your fellow beings has been spreading autonomously across every generation with a greater current -- acknowledgement, acceptance, and appreciation of the world and the people in this world.  The one who can realize the truth of self will be able to find happiness in life.  And to be able to sit with themselves and enjoy the silence.  The truths is your ego, anger, greed and addictions troubling you.  So, to live a happy fulfilled life, give up these three abnormalities.

If we hold on to these three abnormalities, we will never be able to deal with situations.  So we give people the silent treatment.  Instead of being silent with ourselves, and listening to what the person is saying and feeling.   And listening to ourselves, so we can properly communicate with the other person.  We let our emotions take over, and we shut down or yell.  We attack the person, instead of the situation.

To me, giving the silent treatment is never okay.  I know with me, I can get really quiet and not respond, because I know myself and I know if I do respond, I will say something hurtful.  Normally, I let the person know why I am not speaking.  But it is never okay to give someone the silent treatment.  But to be silent with yourself, to attack the situation instead of the person.  You will be able to speak your truth, with honesty and respect.  To let them know how you are feeling.  You don't want someone to feel like they aren't worthy of your time.  Because everyone is worthy of someones time.  Especially if you have some kind of relationship with them.  But don't be a fool and think that just because you are being honest with them, they will do the same in return.  If someone can not show you the same decency and respect.  It's not because of you, it's because of them.  They haven't been able to deal with themselves, so how can you expect them to deal with situations involving other people?  But once you attack the situation, just leave it at that.  It is up to the other person to either continue with the silent treatment or be silent with themselves, so they will be able to respond to you properly.

But it's almost like there is this unwritten rule that most follow, especially women.  If they can't respond at a reasonable time.  Let's say about 2 months, they are a weak ass and they are no longer worth your time and attention.  This I follow, kind of.  I need to live my life in peace and dignity.  BUT if the person wanted to talk with me.  With honesty, respect and maturity, I will not give them the silent treatment.  But I will not let them taint my soul, spirit, and my happiness either.

But true silence can be enjoyable. We realize that there are many things that we do not have to say, and that then we can reserve the time and energy to do other things that can help us to look more deeply into ourselves and the world around us.  If you are pushed by your habit energy to say something negative, don't say it.  But don't be a weak ass and ignore someone by making them feel worthless.  Explain to them that you can't respond appropriately.  Give yourself the proper time to think about the situation so that you can respond maturely.  But if you take to much time, not everyone will be like me and let you speak to them again.  They will probably do what you did, make you feel worthless and give you the silent treatment.

But once you can be silent and listen to yourself and everything around you, slowly you become a master of yourself.  And eventually you will know what to say and what not to say.

(^-^)v
Nell-e 

Sunday, December 29, 2013

Happiness and Suffering

I haven't wrote anything in a while.  Well, not on here.  So I thought I would share my thoughts with you guys on a quote I came across.  If you guys don't know, I am a practicing Buddhist.  No, it's not my religion, my religion is something else.  But it doesn't matter what your religion is, anyone can practice Buddhism.

So here are my thoughts on this quote.


"The nature of everything is illusory and ephemeral. Those with dualistic perception regard suffering as happiness, like they who lick the honey from the razor’s edge. How pitiful are they who cling strongly to concrete reality. Turn your attention within, my heart, friends."  -Nyoshul Khen Rinpoche


Photo by FWStupidio on DeviantArt
Link here: http://www.deviantart.com/art/Reflection-of-Buddhism-124754138


Nyoshul Khenpo Rinpoche (1932-1999) was a Tibetan lama.

  • Illusory: causing illusion; deceptive; misleading.  
  • Ephemeral: lasting a very short time.

What I believe his words to mean...

Everything is so illusionary that one cannot distinguish between reality and illusion.  Is there any clear demarcation as to what is happiness and what is suffering?  One that considered happiness a minute ago, might turn into suffering.  Nothing is absolute, it's all relative.

Some could say that suffering isn't happiness.  No one in there right mind would think that they are one of the same.  But they can be.

If you drop a bouncy ball, doesn't the ball bounce back after it hits the surface? (duh)  But if I told you, to put as much force behind the bounce, what will happen to the ball?  It cracks, possibly break -- Happiness leading to suffering.  When people suffer they just have to make light of it, by realizing that they are on the downward motion, just like the ball.  You are the ball.  And just like the ball, if you make light of it, soon you will bounce back.  If you put too much force, you will crack, possibly break and be stuck.  Its just simple Yin and Yang.

Suffering as happiness means, we mistaken things that set us up to crave more and eventually changes into the suffering of dissatisfaction for happiness.  So we eventually seek out the things that bring pleasure to our lives, which comes in the illusion of happiness.  Because pleasure and happiness aren't the same.  So we become pleasure junkies, hankering after happiness in things that always change into suffering.  Hence Nyoshul Khenpo Rinpoche saying, "they who lick the honey from the razor’s edge."

But concrete reality is our own dream in which we "know" all the names for things that surrounds us.  And you are not pitiful if you decided to cling strongly to your concrete reality.  But the majority keep forgetting that our concrete reality is based upon our senses and concepts, and they are subject to change.  They are temporary, therefore ephemeral -- Existing one moment and disappearing the next.  Basically all the things we see or hear is inside us, not outside of us, and depends on our perception of our concrete reality.

Our perception depends on the clarity inside.  To turn our attention inward, is to acknowledge the source of everything that makes up our world by seeing, hearing, smelling, tasting, and touching.  To be attentive, is to be silent.  To be silent, is to live with the world and in the world, but not to be of the world.

So, try to remember to turn your attention within your heart -- Listen.  Because that is how you will be able to distinguish between happiness, pleasure, and suffering.  What is real and what is Illusory.

(^-^)v
Nell-e


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Monday, October 28, 2013

Pokemon Wallpapers - Eevee and Mega Charizard XY

Eevee in Pokeball.  I made this for my friend, Drevi, because she loves Eevee.  But  I also wanted to make this look really nice so that I and other Pokémon fans will like this. 
© 2013. Created by Chanelle Kirk

Mega Charizard X & Y in Pokeballs, flowing through Magma.  This took forever making the pokeballs, placing the pokeballs within the magma, adding the shadows, and creating the text effect. I wish I could have done a cooler magma text effect, but I don't have Photoshop. Created with Gimp 2.8. 
© 2013. Created by Chanelle Kirk


These images can be found on my DeviantArt profile... http://kirkchanelle.deviantart.com/ ... and my Facebook Art Page... http://www.facebook.com/ArtsyCubenerd ... and my instagram... @artsy_cubenerd
If you are going to use these pictures for any reason, or my other Pokémon wallpapers, please let me know by leaving a comment in this blog or my Deviant Art page or my Facebook Art Page.  I would really appreciate it, and it shows respect to the artist that took the time to make this for viewers eyes.  Thank You.  (^-^)v
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Saturday, October 26, 2013

Realistic Pokeballs - Pokemon Wallpapers

So I wanted to show that I can also do Photoshop work... Well these were actually made with Gimp 2.8,  I don't have Photoshop on my laptop.  But anyways, I decided to upload my two most recent photoshop work. So here it is.

 First, is my Charmander in Pokeball wallpaper.  It was my first attempt at making a realistic looking pokeball, and I am some what happy with it.  You can find this image on DeviantArt on my profile... http://kirkchanelle.deviantart.com/art/Charmander-Pokeball-409576861 and on my Facebook Art Page... http://www.facebook.com/ArtsyCubenerd.

© 2013. Created by Chanelle Kirk

  

And this is my 2nd attempt. I LOVE THIS ONE!!  This Lapras in a Pokeball.  Lapras is my favorite water type pokemon.  But anyways, I finally got the ball to look realistic.  And the water is an image I found on yahoo.  But I plan on remaking my charmander one.  You can also find this image on my DeviantArt profile.  
  
© 2013. Created by Chanelle Kirk
   
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Tuesday, March 5, 2013

ABC Family: Pretty Little Liars, Troian Bellisario Drawing

This drawing is of Troian Bellisario from ABC Family, Pretty Little Liars.  Yes I know I'm 24 years old and PLL is for teenagers.  Shit look at me I typed "PLL" lol.  Well I think that Troian Bellisario is a beautiful attractive young woman and she isn't a teenager so I decided to draw her.  Another reason I drew her is because most people don't draw her or Shay Mitchell.  I have a link of a drawing I did of Shay Mitchell on my Facebook Artist Page. www.facebook.com/ChanellesArtPage .  Go there to check out my drawings and Like my page please.  I would be very appreciative of it.


The drawing above is of the outline and Troian's eyes and some shading and shadowing of her left eye and nose.  This took about 30 minutes, give or take. 

This one is a more fill in of both eyes and eyebrows and nose.  Just to kind of show off to people in how cool it looks to see a drawing come together.

Eyes, Nose, & Lips some what finished.  Her lips, in my opinion, look a lil more plump.  But I like it.

Her face all done.  She has such flawless skin.  It was kind of hard to not make her face a lil darker than it is.  But I was able to pull it off.



And the finished project.  In total this drawing took about 12 hours to finish.  I spent about 3 hours on her hair.


Well this is the Troian Bellisario drawing.  Tell me what you guys think.  For me personally, I feel it looks like her, but then it doesn't.  What do you guys think.  And again please go to my Facebook Artist Page and like it please.  http://www.facebook.com/ArtsyCubenerd



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Thursday, January 17, 2013

ABC Family: Pretty Little Liars, Shay Mitchell Drawing

This was my mark for me to start selling drawings.  And to draw portraits for other people.  So I thought I would share it.  I spent about 4 days on this drawing.  I wanted it to be perfect and this was the first drawing that I drew in about 3 years.  So this Shay Mitchell drawing I will not be selling, but I do plan on drawing 2 more of her.


Outline of Shay Mitchell and eyes done.  Most people like to draw extra lines and markings on there drawings.  I guess those are there guides.  But I don't use guides.  I just sketch the outline and then fill in what I see.  I was never good with having extra lines and stuff as my guide on my drawings, it just threw me off.
Half of Shay Mitchell's face finished.  usually I would have done her eyes, nose and then lips. But because this was some what of a side view of her face, I didn't feel comfortable approaching the drawing that way.  Approaching the drawing from the left side of the face, made it visible that the face was forming in a more 3D realistic way.  And sorry about the glare, that's the one bad thing about using graphite and taking a picture of it.
Her face some what finished.  When I got towards the end I darken her face a lil bit.

Her shoulder and chest area finished.

First Layer of her hair added on.  What I mean by that is I try to apply as much of the shadowing in her hair that I can see. and then I make strokes in her hair, like a bunch of lines.  And then I go over all those strokes and smudge them in to create a solid.  With that being done, I should be able to see most of the shadows that I applied and some of the lines to give a guide in how her hair is flowing.
Finished (01/17/13) drawing the beautiful Shay Mitchell from ABC Family, Pretty Little Liars.  Her hair is darker in person. 



If you like my drawing and have any suggestions in who I should draw, just leave me a comment.  Also, if you want your own personal drawing, I can do that, with a price of course.  I am very fair with my prices.  If you want a 8.5 in. x 11 in. drawing.  The starting price will be $10.00.  If you want two faces on that same size paper it will be $20.  I do not draw more than two faces on a 8.5 in. x 11 in. paper.  For a drawing on a 11 in. x 14 in. paper, the starting price will be $40.00 and an additional $10 per head.  If you are interested please leave me a comment and we will continue from there.